He ran towards me with wild eyes, screaming, “Mommy! Mommy!!! Help me!"
There was only about twenty yards between us, but it felt like two hundred. Finally, he collapsed in my arms.
“He was hitting me, Mommy! And he threw a stick at me! It hit me in the head!”
I already knew what had happened. I’d seen it all from the kitchen window. Still, I let him continue to talk as I rubbed his head and held him close, my heart breaking that a mere five year old child could feel so much distress over a situation he didn’t have much control over.
Then, with earnest eyes, he looks up at me. “Mommy, next time you hear me screaming like that, you have to come right away, alright? Don’t wait. Come as fast as you can. I was calling for you, and…”
I hugged him tightly again and whispered in his ear, “I did come right away! I heard you calling! It took me a minute get from the kitchen to the back door, honey, but I came as fast as I could.”
“But Mommy, I was calling you…and you weren’t there…”
Sometimes, in my naivety, I have conversations like that with God.
“God, I was calling You, and You weren’t there!”
“God, I needed Your help! Where were You?!”
“Why didn’t You come right away when I called?”
And then I collapse in His arms and He wraps His arms around me, speaking these words into my heart:
”Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.” Isaiah 46:4He is my Sustainer when I’ve done all I know to do.
He is my Rescuer when I am wild-eyed and frightened.
He is the One Who carries me when I’ve fallen at His feet.
And I am reminded that, despite His perceived silence at times ~ despite my absolute blindness at times ~ He is always there, always at work for my ultimate good.
In Passionate Pursuit,
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So true! I am often (okay, always) like a small child with him!
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Beautiful! Found you over at Sarah Mae's blog
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post! I love Is 46:4 -
ReplyDeleteHow true this is! I don't know how many times I ask God, "Where were you? Why didn't you help me right away?" But He's there all along, we just don't always notice do we.
ReplyDelete@Olivia ~ I try to be, too!
ReplyDelete@Traci ~ Thanks! & I love Sarah Mae's blog, don't you? ;o)
@Amanda ~ It is such an encouraging verse, isn't it?
@Lori ~ You're right, He is. BTW, I went to your page looking for your contact info, but couldn't find it... could you send me an email at abubblingbrook{at}gmail{dot}com? Thanks! I wanted to ask you something... xoxo
Loved this.
ReplyDeleteLOVE this!
ReplyDeleteI relate to it so well and was blessed by reading it.
I was thinking as I read it that although he sees all too, he still listens when we try to tell him what he already knows.
Such an encouraging post, bless you.
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ReplyDeleteSo beautifully and eloquently said...words I could have penned...
What a blessing to have visited and read this today...
peace,
lori
Lovely......I love the orange top and the story is so real.
ReplyDeleteI am at the stage where I should have the gray hairs and I can verify the truth of that verse.
”Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will sustain you." God has loved me through many scrapes and several hair colors!!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful! Thank you for sharing your heart!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful Post! Just beautiful. I find myself in those shoes often as well.
ReplyDeleteOh my, this is beautiful.
ReplyDeleteOh how I need to collapse in His arms more often! What a beautiful visual picture. I just launched an online series on "REST" so I love that is the theme for Walk With Him!
ReplyDeleteLovely blog! I'm a first time visitor - from Holy Experience.
ReplyDeleteTruly beautiful. All we really need to do is to collapse in God's arms. He's always waiting.
ReplyDeleteSuper awesome truths!
ReplyDeleteThat is precious, thank you .
ReplyDeleteThis is oh so true in my own life. He's always there. Always.
ReplyDeleteWow, that was beautiful! Thank you for sharing this today
ReplyDeleteBeautiful and true! Thank you for sharing!
ReplyDeleteThis is such a wonderful post! Thank you.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, encouraging and refreshing. I lLOVE this post! Thank you.
ReplyDeleteThis brings tears to my eyes because it's so precious. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteSitting here with tears in my eyes. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post! So true, so true.
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